Imprisoned

It all started, one happy day,

So chirpy with joy she moved all day.

She went to her mother, smiled and spoke,

But her’s mother’s response , her heart it broke.

She looked at her mother, trying to recognize the woman she knew,

She reasoned for long, but everything was askew.

What had happened? Through the day she wondered,

Nothing made sense, on and on she pondered.

Her mother was not who she thought she knew,

For her mother became someone and she thought it couldn’t be true.

Just one word of a stranger,

Changed it all.

Her words were not heard,

and her actions seemed all false. 

Since then she’s been watched,

Like a prisoner in a cell.

Her  every movement,

A reason she had to tell.

All she now longed for,

Was some freedom and peace.

A happy life,

And to live with ease.

Her chance finally came,

She moved away.

For a while things were fine,

When history chose to repeat one fine day.

Though away from home.

She’s still imprisoned.

With no voice and words,

In despair she listens.

Her feelings and thoughts,

She’s oppressed and kept.

Helpless and lost,

Every night she wept.

She is in a state,

And her thoughts are of this one.

“I will always regret being her daughter. I just can’t wait to run. “

In her mind forever,

She will remain imprisoned.

She is waiting for that day,

When she can be truly independent.

 

 

I wish….

I wish….

I wish I could tell you,

How much i love you,

But I have no words to voice,

Not because of fear , but because I have no choice.

You now want another girl,

But not the one who loves you,

You don’t even consider me once,

What am i going to do?

But it’s fate,

We were never meant to be,

My love for you is invisible,’

As you can’t see.

The pain stinging my heart,

I’m ready to break,

But I have no words to voice,

Just because I don’t have a choice.

Suspicion

In so many years,

I’ve never faced.

Such humiliation,

It put me in a daze.

I can never forgive you,

You’ve fallen in my eyes.

How can you believe another?

There is no point , I try not to cry.

My anger is ready to erupt,

Im uncontrollably hitting out.

You thought i was so corruput,

You refused to hear me out.

I can never forgive you,

You’ve fallen in my eyes.

How can u believe another?

There is no point , I try not to cry.

From now on I really don’t care,

No one can enter my life’s lair.

None of this more i’ll bear,

Other than myself ; about none other i care.

For so long….

For so long, your thoughts are haunting me,

For so long, your stealing my heart away,

For so long, your keeping me waiting,

So long now , just to see your face.

For so long, I am holding back,

For so long, I am holding them in,

For so long, I am keeping myself from crying,

So long now , without you I’m dying.

For so long, I am trying to forget,

For so long, I’m filled with regret,

For so long, I’m trying to keep away,

So long now, without you I’m unable to stay.

For so long, I’m watching you,

For so long, your fighting thro’

For so long, your suffering inside,

So long now, not letting your love subside.

For so long, I’m praying for you,

For so long, in pain I’m pulling thro’

For so long, I’m wishing your love should succeed,

So long now , My love for you is a sinful deed.

For so long, I know you have another,

For so long, I’m pulling myself together,

For so long, I’m just suppressing my love,

So long now , you just refuse to leave my heart.

For so long, I’m keeping you with me,

For so long now, we talk only about your girl , u see ,

For so long, I’m supporting you thought it is against me,

So long now , My love for u is stronger , cant u feel?

For so long , I know your never mine,

For so long , I’m happy that your in my life,

For so long , I know your relationship with her is deep,

So long now , I want to forget it all in one sweep.

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No rights!!

I have no rights to my own life,

I have no right to love.

I have no right to call you mine,

I have no right to decide.

I have no right to ask questions,

I have no right to thrive.

I have no right to voice my thoughts

Nor do i have a right to your mind.

I have no right to criticize you,

Nor do i have the right to truth.

For i’m not the girl i used to be,

But i know i never betrayed you! 😦

……….

I feel the weight of your hands on mine.

I feel your lips like it’s right on mine.

I can see your eyes just boring into mine.

I can feel you hug like your right beside.

i can see your lips  just smiling at me.

I can feel your love flowing towards me.’

But why is this happening i thought we were friends?

You just had a break up and i’m not able to meet both ends.

I saw it in your eyes you still love her so much

But what made you do all that? was it my b’day present?

Your guilt is just  too much bear.

I cannot see you sad and i’m going into the depths of despair.

To me what you did doesn’t feel wrong.

You just had a break up  so why prolong?

But you love her so much i can see it in your eyes,

But i love you so much that  i cannot voice.

So i made a choice and this is it..

I’ll never see you or hear your voice.

I’ll never pick your calls or text you back.

This is stabbing my heart but i’m not bleeding.

Instead my gush of tears is just flowing.

I know no other and this choice feels right,

To keep you safe from spoiling your life.

I’m not a good person you should know…

I can never be yours though i want to so.