Helpless

I lie on my bed , my head swirling,

With no clarity of what im thinking.

I find myself just staring off into space,

Everything around me seems to fade.

Such strong feelings i ve never felt,

With all these before i ve never dealt.

Confusions im facing now,

What do i want , i wish to know now.

I ‘ve forgotten to smile and cheer,

My face is dull and my voice a sneer.

Unable to be with anyone so close,

If someone talks i shout myself hoarse.

He is the one person with who i wish to be,

But he’s so far , him im craving to see.

Anyone else , i wish to slit their throat,

I want no one in my life no more.

As much as try , im not able to connect,

I’ve lost everyone , so disconnected.

I’ve become quiet and lost myself,

Who truly am i ? I ask myself.

His thoughts is the only thing i want,

His image in my mind it haunts.

I feel as if he s slipping away,

These days to him i have no words to say.

Is this a relationship? or is it dream?

Its definitely not what i think it seems.

Where s all this leading to? Is there an answer,

My life, I’ve made into a perfect disaster.

So helpless i feel , i wish i could change in a spark,

I wish i could just turn back the clock.

A last resort

 

So many things,

I just cant think,

What should i do?

I have no clue.

All around me there ‘s fun and play,

But my life is just so plain,

I’m the last resort for anything now,

Even my so called friends are long gone now.

I have no explanation,

All of this is my interpretation,

I wish someone would open out,

And just clear out all my doubts.

Things were great just a year long back,

Now everything feels such a slack,

I’m the last resort, I wonder why?

What did i do ? I’ve always tried.

For so i just keep pushing these thoughts away,

But it was time for my breaking point anyway,

I’m just letting my emotions flow,

I hope my future will be full of glow.

I seek random people out,

To talk and cry out aloud,

I’m the last resort, I’m lost alone,

Will everything fall back to its place as before? 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Being Me

Being me,

It’s just so hard,

It’s just so blurred,

I have no clue if my identity has ever been heard.

 

I have no talent ,

I have no say,

I’m not intelligent,

There’s no achievement that can come my way,

 

I’ve cried,

I fought,

I tried to forget,

But my thoughts i could not.

 

I almost gave up,

I was tired of fighting,

But something raised me up,

And i continued moving.

 

I dunno where my life is going,

I’m just following , random paths are protruding.

My goal in life, i’m still seeking,

My destiny, with me it’s playing.

 

But i know now,

There’s a lot in my life,

I can surely achieve,

On my own i will strive.

 

Honor – Cinquain #5

Honor,

A pride,

Heads held high,

Nothing can feel prouder,

Honor. 

Acrostic #4

This poem is dedicated to my best friend!!!! Koushik!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

You became so close to me in such short time,

Made me your best friend and stood up for me every time.

Me and you were inseparable like two sides of a coin,

Feels like we were inter twined.

Special in every way you made me feel,

Thank You for showing me what’s happiness in real.

 

 

Yearning – Acrostic #2

Your so romantic,

Even just hearing your voice makes me feel erotic,

As much as i turn away,

Recklessness paves it’s way.

Not knowing my own passion,

I‘m unaware of my own decision,

Never did it occur to think twice,

Got myself into something i could never visualize.

My fear….

Sam -

The whole day I’ve been crying,

The pain in my heart won’t stop devouring.

So insecure feel,

Of what little is left of my life without a protective shield.

Thoughts and pictures just keep flashing in my mind,

Like someone is playing a movie of my life from behind.

I keep diverting my mind to you,

But nothing changed , it’s like a nightmare come true.

Thinking about you always makes me smile,

But today that did not happen , even if i walk a mile.

There is so much fear in my heart,

My head is spinning and my dizziness starts.

But now my hands are feeling heavy,

As if your sitting beside me and hugging my body.

I’m feeling so scared,

The pain i’m not able to bear.

I am not the girl who i was,

I’ve given up trying to fight for my own cause.

I’ve lost all strength and courage,

I don’t if any girl has suffered so much at this young age.

The whole day I’ve been crying,

The pain in my heart won’t stop devouring!!!!

      – Harshi

P.S : Please check this out. This post is dedicated to the same person for whom I’ve written this poem to.

 http://dancingfreak.wordpress.com/2011/06/10/ever-since-i-met-sami/

Untold love – [ Poetry Potluck week 38 ]

This poem that I’m going to write is inspired by a song from the movie ” JODHAA AKBAR ” – ” Jashn – E – Bahara “. It’s my most favorite songs and very touching. From the very music to lyrics to tune , the song just pulls you in. You won’t even know you went into a trance. It’s that beautiful!

 

In love he was with a beautiful girl,

Her thoughts just made his mind whirl.

Every time he saw her ,

He felt strangely enchanted.

Love was in the air,

Their lives had just started.

Day and night he used to await,

For her presence in his estate.

There was nothing he could do,

His focus was impossible.

Her beauty killed him,

In front of his eyes her picture would swim.

As they walked together,

Their silence broken by neither.

In awe he stared,

About her so much he cared.

His eyes kept searching,

So much for her he was yearning.

Even the moon hides behind the clouds,

Now not feeling so proud.

So much in love he was,

In her charm he was so lost.

Ruthless

So much love you gave,

So much happiness you brought my way,

But in a flash everything changed,

So ruthless you became. 

Suspicion

In so many years,

I’ve never faced.

Such humiliation,

It put me in a daze.

I can never forgive you,

You’ve fallen in my eyes.

How can you believe another?

There is no point , I try not to cry.

My anger is ready to erupt,

Im uncontrollably hitting out.

You thought i was so corruput,

You refused to hear me out.

I can never forgive you,

You’ve fallen in my eyes.

How can u believe another?

There is no point , I try not to cry.

From now on I really don’t care,

No one can enter my life’s lair.

None of this more i’ll bear,

Other than myself ; about none other i care.